1. a life
3. a boyfriend
coincidentally, getting a boyfriend who has a lot of money would give me a “life”. proof that everything in the universe is connected.
"I wrote this thing and I don’t know what it is. It just kind of came out of me - and I didn’t sleep, and it felt really great, and then I was seized with this idea that I wanted someone to read it and I thought of you. And then, when I put it under your door, the feeling of wanting someone to read it was immediately replaced by intense regret and deep, deep shame."
-Sarah Braverman, Parenthood (via drumrollplz)
Browsing my school’s career website. The only postings I am even remotely qualified for are CASHIER and SERVER.
No boyfriend either.
So, after my prof dropped that bombshell on me (the only way to leave is to present evidence that shows the guys in my group were not doing their work appropriately, and if I succeed they will lose 20% and have to start a new project from scratch), I felt bad. I thought, maybe this is a bit harsh.
As much as I didn’t want to, I sucked it up and went back to the guys to offer an olive branch. I’m just too nice.
My friend (the other girl in the group) had a class with one of the guys from the group and she talked to him. He pretty much said he understands why we left and he’s gonna talk to the other guys and make sure we all get back together because he doesn’t want to take a 20% hit. Fine.
Me and my friend have a class with another one of the guys who has done nothing and told him what the prof said to me. Then I told him, “Hey, I don’t want to fire you. I don’t want you to have to lose 20%. Let’s just pick the group back up.” And you know what this dumbass ho says to me? “You owe me an apology first because of the way you walked out of there with the biggest sarcastic smile. It pissed the whole group off.”
He doesn’t owe us an apology for repeatedly not doing any work and completely screwing us over, no. I owe him an apology for the way he perceived my action of quitting. Not one word about WHY I QUIT either. SO FRUSTRATING. Plus, if we don’t get back together it’s just gonna be better for me and my friend! We will never lose anything. All the work is ours. We have proof. They are the ones who are going to lose 20% and have to start from scratch… so do you really think you should be making demands right now?
I was gonna lose it, but my friend lost it first and WENT OFF on this idiot. I was just sitting there like, now you done it.
I’m sorry, but it was MAD SATISFYING watching him get toldddd. Plus, I feel like I’ve been the “villain” this whole time, and now he knows someone else is really unhappy with him too. It’s not just me. Anyway, he tried to backtrack by saying he was joking about the apology. (He wasn’t.) He tried to say he always talks to me in a sarcastic manner, “right?” Um, no. We don’t even talk. And I didn’t find that comment sarcastic. But I’d like to point out it’s completely fine for him to speak sarcastically to me after I quit - like it’s all a big joke, BUT if he perceives my actions to be sarcastic ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE and I owe him an apology.
So that talk didn’t go too well. On to the next one! Me and my friend had one more class for the day, and it was also with a guy from our group. Anyway so we tell him the deal, and I mention how I never meant to hurt anyone’s feelings or bruise any egos, but I left because I was really unhappy etc. etc. And he’s just like, “Yeah you were just so sarcastic in the way you left…”
This bullshit again? You’ve got these 4 guys all continually missing deadlines and not doing any work. And then they back each other up and normalize that behavior. I had to stand up and say I’m leaving because I’m not happy with behavior they seem to think is completely normal and acceptable. That was harddd. I felt super awkward when I left. Maybe I had an awkward smile on my face that they misinterpreted. But also, once again, what about before the group broke up? What I think is most relevant is what led to the separation. That perceived sarcasm did not contribute to the break up, it happened after. Anyways whatever, this douche was giving us some brutally cold shoulder.
So basically, in the end, me and my friend were like,
We’re going to go argue our case to separate and these bitches are DONE. We did everything and we have proof we did it all. They missed every deadline, and we have proof that they did. The stuff they gave us was ABYSMAL. Tons of mistakes, doesn’t make sense, just incorrect. And we have it to show the prof!
They think they have an argument to make against us?
I ain’t worried.